some encouragement for you

 edit: this blog post is actually from yesterday. I thought I posted it but apparently??? I didn't??? anyhoo enjoy:

so fun fact about me: I get really tired (physically and emotionally) when I'm around people for an extended period of time. How long it takes for me to get this way depends on (a) my mood (b) how long you intend on keeping me around people and (c) my circumstances/if things are changing quickly.

fellow introverts ya feel me???

Okay, but maybe you're not an introvert. If you're not, I'll attempt to emphasize with you, but I really don't understand how y'all can just people people people and STILL feel as energetic as a shaken can of Coke by the end of the day. No offense. Perhaps not being around people a lot gets you really tired? Maybe that's it? For me it's the exact opposite. But sometimes it randomly switches. And if it does, you'd better do something with me quick, because my extroverted moods are very precious and deserve to be cherished. (my family can testify to this.)

but no matter what gets us tired, we all know the feeling of lying on our beds and just feeling drained. The silence is too much, but no music will suit our tastes. Is there anything that would feel good for us mentally right now? Well, yes, there is that one thing...but to do that we'd have to do this thing first...and to do that we'd have to get up...no, no. It's too much. *pulls blankets up over head and contemplates crying*

*or maybe actually cries*

In moments like this...it's very easy to get mad at ourselves. Why is it so difficult for us to get up? Why are we like this?

And in the same vein, it's very easy for us to get confused with ourselves once we do get up. Why did it take us so long? Why are we suddenly somewhat okay?

Because, like it or not, healing takes time. There is absolutely no reason to get mad at yourself when you just need to lie in a heap feeling all of your emotions and just feeling too drained to get up. And then again, there is also no reason for you to push down feelings of getting mad! Because your feelings are valid, dear one. There's literally nothing wrong with feeling sad. Or drained. Or mad. And there's nothing wrong with taking a little while to get up and start taking care of yourself. Whatever happens happens. You're doing your very best. You're still learning. And that's okay! It's not one event, it's a process, that makes up the learning of our lives.

Let yourself be as you are. You are valid. You are safe. You are loved.

You can rest. You can rest. You can rest.

(now repeat that to yourself until you really believe it.)

oxoxo,

blissfully yours,

Emma <3